Breathe

It's the first thing we all do as human being when we enter this world. Why is it so easy to forget to do?

Caution rough road ahead

So I saw this sign this morning on my walk. To bad life doesn't have such helpful messages!
Who would have guessed I was heading down a rough road here in Sayulita last night ? I let loneliness and lack of sleep get the better of me and "crash". Down I went!

This morning I am picking up the pieces as best I can and moving ahead, with caution.

Balance

I know this much is true... for me! Life is a balance. Yin and Yang
For the Last few months have been amazingly stressful. Tons of decisions, lots of hard work! The only bright spot was Lucas and the Occasional Bikrams class.
This week has has been bliss. Warm temperatures and sunshine, no work no decsions! But no Bikrams
(except in my head) and no Lucas (except in my dreams).
Eventually the perfect balance will be found. Little stress, some hard work, Bikrams for enjoyment and my Partner, Lucas to share it all with me daily:)

Heaven vs. Hell

Every day we are confronted with decisions. What to wear, where to go, who to spend time with? Some decisions come easy and others take time. Some are meaningless others are a crossroads. What to do?
I have often wished all my decisions could come with the outcome videos attached. Imagine choosing outcome A or B, could C be best? I have all the info to the end result....
Well until I can make that fantasy come true I remain here in my own reality. Wishing for heaven, worrying. Oh hell....

Can She Do It?

Maybe thats a question I ask myself more than anyone... can you do this Wendy? The answer is most always YES!
Today I was reminded of this again, but in a more fun way:)
Challenges, new faces, new ways of doing and seeing things! I could go into details but suffice to say I made it. Safe and sound and in a beautiful casita... a place I've always looked at and thought "I wonder what cool person lives there?"
Me!
Yes I can.

On the Road Again

Wow, what a day. I'm exhausted! Highlights?
 Bikrams at 8.
 Packing and repacking 4 times to get the right stuff. Realizing that I still have a LONG way to go to consolidate to "two bags"!
Realizing, again that Lucas was right and that I don't always have to know what's best.
Counting on and getting friendship.
I feel so blessed to be on this road. Where it will lead is not the most important thing.... it's that I'm on a good path.

smile

The yoga wisdom I am claiming for myself today comes from yesterdays class with Larissa. After standing Bow Pose she commented, "If you fall out of Bow, get right back in and smile. Go easy on yourself. Sometimes when you fall you just have to laugh." Good advise when I'm feeling the pressure to do everything so perfectly

Personal responsability

Today I was thinking about how I had injured myself badly a year or so ago during a Hot yoga class. I had always blamed my instructor for pushing me to hard, not being compassionate, not handling the situation...blah,blah,blah
The truth was, I was not prepared at the time to take responsibility for myself and my body.
Soooo.... guess who my Bikrams teacher was today? Larisa! The instructor from that fateful class! I hadn't seen her for a long time as she travels to many studios to teach. We finally had a chance to talk about that day and tell each other our feelings about it. She was awesome and we actually had tons in common. It was beautiful. Thank you universe for giving me a chance to take the blame for the mistakes I made that day....

Standing Head to Knee

For 10 years standing head to knee posture has been my biggest yoga challenge.
I hate it!!! I hate thinking about it, because it's hard for me!
Most of the time (OK almost all the time) I know its coming next in the sequence so I decide to take a break and lay down. Pretty much playing possum. Why? Maybe because it's human nature to avoid things that are difficult.
Yesterdays yoga instructor Fred said "The things that are difficult are supposed to be hard to obtain! It makes you love it more when you own it" Hmmmmm....
Today I chose to Kick out in my least favorite posture. I didn't nail it, and it wasn't beautiful but I was proud. Proud of me trying.

heat it up

when I'm not feeling good... I'm usually cold.
when I'm cold I fold inside myself.
I hate being cold!
what to do???
Hot Yoga or a bath.... warm
Rain/cold... unhappy
Sun/warm... happy
Why am I in Seattle????

how far will you go

Today I drove 2 hours, there and back, to do a 90 minuet Bikrams class. Why??? Because my daughter wanted me to.....

Past VS. Future

As I pack up, sell off and walk away from my past I wonder what to bring with me to the future. I look closely at each item trying to remember the pleasure it gave me, if it did, or other feelings associated with it.
As I do this I think of how lucky I am to have the chance to change everything inside and out. Along with being very selective with Items I bring to chapter two, I pledge to be as selective with the people I surround myself with in my new life.

Practice

every day is a new gift of your own practice. You wake with an intention and you follow up with the rest of the day. Like it or not at the end your intention was carried out. For better or worse...
My intension is chapter two of my life.....i will get there, wish me luck on the outcome.

The best of times and the worst of times....

Missing my baby.... loving someone and being apart is hard on my heart

Dragging myself to to Bikrams classes and loving how it makes me feel... broken heart and all